he ended up partying with the band few days ago. i tried to look natural. like i wasn't hiding the loneliness that was starting to occupy me. i noticed that he was watching me closely as i gulp every beer on my plastic cup. yeah, that was way too much for me but i was just in the mood to get drunk. 2004's closing and we were closing the deal too. i should be happy 'coz we made it. my ex finally has the "cruella de ville" of my life as his girl. great job, it worked!
i was darn wasted during the party. i was a bit nasty i guess. all i knew was that i was drinking for "us", the word we just lost a while ago. i never cared if i was too much of a bother to him. i just wanted to witness for the last time how he takes care of me as the "girlfriend". i'm never good with goodbyes but i didn't realize it would hurt this much since the split-up is planned and expected. i'm hurting as if it's real.
he called to greet. he told me i made his life more meaningful for the past year and said the magic words. i should be happy right? right. like i should be thankful because he's making me miss him more. but this is really it. it's over and done. well, it's not as if we're not gonna see each other anymore. i know he'd still be around. it's just that...i'm not that strong when i see him smile.
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