january

my mind's wandering way back on the the 31st of december 2004, the morning after the party. he was the very first person i saw when i got down from the attic of the rest house where the group stayed. there he was, seated on the bench, eyes closed and his face slighty covered with his palm. i sat beside him and smiled. that day was our last day together and we were actually in the same place where we first met. i still remembered how he asked for my name during the pray-over. he woke up and turned to me...i was confident i looked strong. but things went out of control. how could i let my emotions take hold? everything else was fake but my feelings. now here i am, slouching in my bed, alone and feeling frail. damn...i got it bad! = (